Isn’t it funny how one little person can so drastically change you down to your core? 365 days ago I became the person I so badly wanted to be.
2:11pm. On October 30th, 2017. My little Daniella was born. I was secretly afraid I would not be able to be the mom I wanted to be. I was scared of not attaching to her, postpartum depression, and all the stuff not often talked about! Although I had my struggles I was blessed enough to fall into motherhood like I always dreamed. This last year has been a wild ride! We’ve had a lot of firsts on our own and as a family of 3. I can’t wait to tell you all of the stories of our first year together, but for now here is a letter to you my sweet girl on your first birthday!
Hello my sweet Danna,
Did you know you’re my greatest blessing? I hope I always make you feel that way. You, my sweet girl have helped shape me into the person I am today! Your Daddy and I love you far more than words can say! I will never forget how I felt that cold winter afternoon when we found out we were pregnant. I was sick to my stomach and thought it was the flu, but after a few thoughts running through my mind I decided I better take a pregnancy test. Well 1 test turned into 10 tests before I believed it. Your Daddy sat in the bathroom with me as I was in disbelief, shock, excitement and very nervous.
I was sick for a while, but as your grandma kept reminding me…this too shall pass and she was right! After a couple months I felt great and several months after that you made your quick appearance into the world! What a whirlwind of a day that was! What a blessed day it was! I was determined and I took labor seriously. I was a fierce Mama who wanted my baby girl out safe and fast! With 3 pushes my doll you made your entrance! Those seconds before I heard your cry felt like hours and then there you were, your sweet cry letting us know you were here!! Daddy stood there and watched (like a hawk) as the nurse cleaned you off. From day one he has been your protector and he always will be.
I’m not quite sure how this last year flew by so quickly, I’m so excited to watch you change and grow, yet it’s bitter sweet to see my little baby disappear and change into an independent little girl.
You are so strong and sassy, beautiful and bold. You are one of a kind and no matter how many birthdays pass…you will always be my little girl.